Lately I have been struggling with a huge issue in my life. Infertility. Granted this issue has been around for over a decade now, but it still seems to consume my life. I attended a baby shower on Saturday that just dug up the whole issue again. It has gotten so bad that I don't know how to comfort myself nor do others. I finally resolved that God is the only one big enough to handle it. This decision was made Saturday night and in church Sunday morning I was given the tools to deal with it. Once again, God works in mysterious ways.
The message was about getting out of the boat and walking on the water with Jesus. Taking that step of faith and telling Jesus wait for me I am coming with you. Leaving all my junk in the boat, that by the way is sinking in my case.
"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. For by it the people of old received their commendation." Hebrews 11: 1-2
My boat is filled with pain, misery and unforgiveness. Pain and misery that I have carried around for years. Pain and misery that I have laid on other people. Not being able to forgive myself for choices that I made years ago. That was a choice that I made. I can't go back and undo that choice now, it is to late. I can't remember now if I made that choice on my own or if I even consulted God. Either way it is done. He has given me the tools to deal with, but I have just never taken them down off the shelf.
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
Well, I have filled my boat so full that it is either time to walk on the water with Jesus or sink. I don't want to sink. I know I have to take that step of faith that He can take care of this. One step at a time, eyes focused ahead on the man that can take care of it all. No more burdens, pain or suffering.
"I can do all things through him who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13
Take off the socks and shoes, put on the highwaters (capris, pedal pushers, whatever it is that you call them) and let's go take a walk on the water.
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